Trust?
Trust? How do you learn to trust people again? What steps can you take? Where’s the instruction manual to relearn what was robbed from you? Something that was so integral to your values, being and soul was trust. It was such an innocent trust, no abandon or thought of betrayal of another soul to carry your heart. However, once you have been shown that can all disappeared in a blink, how to you rebuild that?
Sure you can rebuild your life, every facet of it-job, fitness, focus, views, routines.
But how do you go about taking back time, going back to a time when your approach towards entering relationships was entirely different? How can you get there again, where your heart truly trusts someone with your flaws? With your shortcomings.
How can you trust another being’s love to always be there? To not shift or alter or to just give up? Because it can happen that way.
I don’t know the steps. I will need help to figure this part out.
Does a heart ever really heal after being smashed, exploded, burned to ashes. How do you put back pieces that are no longer there? How do you bridge those gaps in your heart?
Twenty years ago my heart was big, and welcoming and bold and so so proud.
Today it is timid, scared and a nervous wreck.
It must start in small steps, as all things do that grow. Small, seemingly insignificant steps towards progress in the direction of pure trust. Trust the process they say.
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